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FOR UNCLE

I felt the urge to write something for uncle. It’s been 9 days since he left but I still can’t seem to accept the fact wholeheartedly. I was so overwhelmed by his drive to live, by his strength to survive, but I guess there are really some things, some people, that God won’t allow us to be with for a long time. I respect God’s plan. I know my Tito Bujao, is in a better place right now. It would’ve hurt us more if we still see him in his suffering phase. During his last days, every sight of him in pain almost killed me inside. I just can’t cry or even frown in front of him with such scenes. Rather, I’m keeping my happy shield up. I should smile. I should show him he can. I should be positive.

My days with uncle.. I can say that these are some of the toughest days I have ever encountered. Days when you have to fight against time, against your self. I already had a taste of these tough days back when I was in Grade 6, with same fckin disease, with my beloved grandmom. I wasn’t much aware of the things back then. It was just now that I realized everything, that I felt the real pain, that I’ve seen how I loved and lost.

Tito Jo, I know you can see this. I just wanna say that I am so privileged that I was able to serve you with all my heart. I didn’t regret a thing and if you were granted a longer time to live by God, I swear I will even serve you more. When I was having a hard time finding a nursing job, I said to myself, “Why did I even take up nursing?” Well, now, I found the reason. Now I can say nursing is really for me, primarily for my family, whenever they need me. Tito, I had a great time with you and I have learned a lot. You are one of my biggest inspirations in life. You taught me how to fight. Yes, that one word you keep on saying during our hospital stays, FIGHT! I admire your strength, your drive. I admire you tito. And in the next few fights that I have to encounter, I will always remember you and your battle. You will always be in my heart Tito Bujao!